I feel I have to say this every now and again

msmajik:

If you are following me and I am not following you - say HI! I try to check out the blogs of everyone that follows me, but sometimes I miss some. I don’t like to follow blogs that only reblog because I like to get to know you. So if you are the type that likes to interact then say “Hi there check out my blog and follow me!”

I am not shy and I talk to everyone that will talk to me =)

Gonna steal this and repost from msmajik! :-D

Sunday morning Beetles Rock Band is serious business! <3 (Taken with instagram)

Sunday morning Beetles Rock Band is serious business! <3 (Taken with instagram)

Angela and Kieran (Taken with instagram)

Angela and Kieran (Taken with instagram)

Memorial Day spent with old friends. :-) (Taken with instagram)

Memorial Day spent with old friends. :-) (Taken with instagram)

Kisses for Nana. (Taken with instagram)

Kisses for Nana. (Taken with instagram)

I wish I could read babies minds! I bet they have the best thoughts. (Taken with instagram)

I wish I could read babies minds! I bet they have the best thoughts. (Taken with instagram)

Give me your camera!!!! Family day at the baseball game. (Taken with instagram)

Give me your camera!!!! Family day at the baseball game. (Taken with instagram)

My cousin Angela, Matt, and me at the Redbirds game tonight. (Taken with instagram)

My cousin Angela, Matt, and me at the Redbirds game tonight. (Taken with instagram)

Happy or sad?

The laughs and smiles around me seem so fake. Why can I not feel as relaxed as the other people look? Ever the pessimist, I know that when I smile, it’s mostly forced. Are these people pushing down anger and resentment? Are they putting on a brave face, just like me? Or are they really that happy? If they really are that happy, that makes me angry. It makes me angry because I can’t be happy like them. I have my happy places and my happy moments and my happy securities. But take all those things away, and happy I am not. I hold back more tears than most people shed in a lifetime. I bow my head and walk past the happy people. I ignore the stares and the comments. If they can’t understand my sadness, Why do I try to understand their happiness?

hahahahahahah!

(Source: widowsting, via thebatchild)